Lonely still

We've been here for almost 7 months and still I get lonely. I made a LOT of very close friend in the AK and if I think about it in FL too. But I don't know it just seems really hard at this moment in time to separate myself from my feelings. Maybe Aunt Flow is coming, who knows I'm so irregular. It's just that i was just on My Space and saw an old AK friends page. Her kids have grown so much since may of last year. It's been almost a year since we saw them last. Her dd and mine were BFF's and I know Taty misses Mac alot. I know I miss Grace. I just had to put this up before I finally got my butt into bed. I was amazed by how much it hurt, I actually started to tear up looking at the pics.

Loopedy, loop, loop

Sometimes I think I'm riding a roller coaster and I'm the one that's about ready to pee on herself. I hate roller coasters by the way. Last night was crucial, a real dozy of a pain night. 6 Percocet and 3 Flexril, and I feel like someone stuffed cotton wool in my mouth. I laid in bed an prayed that I would just pass out but no such luck. Then I started to ramble at my poor husband. I really talked a wind about him, about spending more time with his family, mostly. At least that is what my tells me that I was saying. Being that medicated, I'm not really all that certain. He was so sweet, he listened in a sleep stupor and answered with a lot of Huh's? I'm not staying on the computer too long today. I'm going to pick a book, and some lunch then sleep, veg, probably re-medicate. I'm still screaming on this dang roller coaster and I really would like to get off.

I'll take my aches w/ a side of blah

I so overdid it yesterday. Can you say dumb? You'd think by now I would have figured out what my physical limits are. I've only been sick for oh 33 months, just short of 3 years. But nooo, I can't seem to get it. Gee Mo Peep it all aches even my pelvis. Why does my pelvis ache? I haven't used that part of my body for anything good in WEEKS! I feel like someone has beaten quite soundly with large watermelons. My temper is short and the pain is nasty.

The good thing I have meds to control the pain. The bad thing I try not to take those meds unless I'm in dire straights. So I have been putting off medicating myself ALL day so that I can get in bed and not have to do anything else. Another good thing the kids have been fed and I have nothing else pressing to do this evening. So as soon as I finish a couple of things I've been working on I willl be medicating and reading myself to sleep.

This is one of the moments in my Fibro journey that I am like I REALLY HATE PAIN, pain is like as I've said many times-

Having Fibromyalgia pain, is like trying to tell a 2 year old No. That should be every Fibromites motto

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