Finding Peace

I'm a very peaceful person by nature, however I find little things upset me more. Well they upset me more than they used to. I don't ask for much. Like any mother I want time to myself, happy co-exsistence with the world, and love.

Today plans for a beautiful day fell completely out of my control. It was intended that I have the van today, however my hubby totally forgot about my plans. This is not uncommon with my husband, but he is in the process of redemption and well...it was a strike against him. I was to have a thearpy appointment, go to a local hospital and visit a new baby, grab some lunch and stroll the bookstore. It was to be very thearapeutic, I don't get out of the house much. In fact in the last 2 weeks I have been out of the house about 4 times. So I was looking forward to it. He wanted Chinese. So I missed my appointment, missed the friend w/ the new baby (who consequently missed me), and I had crackers and cheese, pineapple and applesauce for lunch. Very filling, it was such a horrible meal. Feeling quite dejected I decided that it was time for a nap. Later I was awoken by my children coming home from school and now I'm up and still upset. For some reason I can't get past my day that wasn't. I find it increasingly unnerving so of course I had to write about it. Hopefully leaching off some of the poision, will help me get past the day.

I guess now I will work on my menu for the start of body makeover next week. Plus I have some old Star Trek Voyagers to watch, .