relaxed, rested, reprieved

There something to be said for giving yourself a treat. I have to admit with money being so tight, that it was a moment of frivolity. However it was much needed, as you have seen by more recent posts. Life has been hectic, harrowing, and brutal. Yet we have remained steady and grounded. With that, my friend Steph and I decided we were going to have a us moment. We went to the nail salon and had pedicures. I do have to say we paid WAY too much and I will not be going back to THAT salon. Yet the service was good and my toes look fantabulous, not to mention it made me FEEL good. And there's something about doing something for yourself when you NEED. Sometimes it has to be , and that is totally unselfish and well-deserved.

I have ALWAYS had a hard time treating myself. I always feel like I could have spent the money or the time in another wiser way. It's been one of those Achilles heel's for me. I struggle with it and maybe that's why I have such a hard time with my dh. I always feel like he does a lot of very selfish things. To me he seems to do it ALL the time. Where as it is weeks even months between my selfish diversions. As a matter of fact I am sure that the last time I had a pedicure was late February and it is now May. When I was working and money was common and flowing I went every 2 weeks. And every visit I to had both my hands and feet done. Now I feel as if it is a luxury item and should be saved for special occasions. Time and money should not be squandered just because you can, and even more so we you can't.

Ahh, that I feel better and will now climb into my bed, feeling as if the world is right for a least one moment.