What I witnessed today......

Today I got up @ 5am. Got in my van and drove to the polls. I talked politics with my 2 Arizona bf's. One a Republican and one a Democrat. I watched the election from my computer, my living room and my bedroom. And as my 7 y/o daughter and my 12 y/o son fought to stay awake..... I watched the First Black President elected to the United States of America.

To say that I was tearful or overwhelmed would be a gross understatement. As the news was announced and my 7 y/o slumbered next to me. I gently touched her shoulder and told her to look at the TV. As she did, her lil brown eyes opened wide and then a very sleepy and soft "Yes" was all she said.

And that is all I have to say. A very sleepy and quiet "Yes". A Yes that change and history and so many things that I could have only dreamed could happen are now happening. The world is changing and FINALLY our country has made it's first step towards change as well.

As the world tilts.....

My father is ill and it seems to be altering my world perceptions.  I seem to be,lost in this gray fog made of all the points in my life my father has affected.  Needless to say I'm quite surrounded.  You never realize how someone affects your very way of thinking until you may lose them.  I've noticed that smells and sounds are triggering mostly memories of my father.  I'm stuck in this constant round of worry about how long he's going to be around. It's like living in a pit where I can see the way out but I'd rather just stay in the pit.

the world at it's craziest

So the world has gone totally wacky between the financial crisis the presidential election and my life it's been a whorl wind. I ran up to Ohio for a month cuz the family has been in crisis and unfortunately due to the touchy nature of the crisis I can't delve here. Lets just say that it is a mess. I feel as if it was a less than productive journey.

I came back to my own life and it's mess. The dh is still distant and it seems to be all I can do to keep my sanity from his view or non-view of the situation. I am trying to reconcile myself to being home and back in this mess.

On a happier note my children were ecstatic to see me and it made the tension between me and my husband less volatile. They both made honor roll, a mother could not be more content there.

As I settle into life here and some other more daunting tasks I'll keep ya updated.