Alone- Defined- Webster’s
- Being apart from others; solitary.
- Being without anyone or anything else; only.
- Considered separately from all others of the same class.
- Being without equal; unique.
Husband Defined: Webster’s
A man joined to a woman in marriage; a male spouse.
However he fits the bill very accurately here. Yet I will always wonder if I could have done better by myself. Considering that I spend most of my time in the fore mentioned state. I want to know why I of all people have suddenly found myself in this quandary. I have not, I thought done anything horribly wrong. I haven’t disguised myself as something I’m not. I am me, although I am very unsure of who that is anymore. I do know that I’m quite lost and uncertain. I’m afraid that I’ve miss-stepped somewhere and have no way of correcting the problem. I can think of a million reasons why I couldn’t be me. And only one reason that I could be me, it’s still my face. Even if it’s not my body, or my feelings, my thoughts or my time.
I’m really quite confused, my husband just came back. I had wished he would but I never even dreamed he would. I was about to politely put my munchkins in bed and knock myself out with drugs so I wouldn’t feel any pain. So the pain would get lost in the incoherency of mind-numbing chaos. So now I get a little reprieve from my senses and maybe I’ll go to sleep happy tonight.